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SKYLER WHITE
Walt, please, let's both of us stop trying to justify this whole thing and admit you're in danger!
WALTER WHITE
[Walter turns to face Skylar; fire is in his eyes. He isn't Walt anymore. It's Heisenberg] Who are you talking to right now? Who is it you think you see? Do you know how much I make a year? I mean, even if I told you, you wouldn't believe it. Do you know what would happen if I suddenly decided to stop going into work? A business big enough that it could be listed on the NASDAQ goes belly up. Disappears! It ceases to exist without me. No, you clearly don't know who you're talking to, so let me clue you in. I am not in danger, Skyler. I AM the danger! A guy opens his door and gets shot and you think that of me? No. I am the one who knocks!
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WALTER WHITE
I have made a series of very bad decisions and I cannot make another one.
GUS FRING
Why did you make these decisions?
WALTER WHITE
For the good of my family.
GUS FRING
Then they weren't bad decisions. What does a man do, Walter? A man provides for his family.
WALTER WHITE
This cost me my family.
GUS FRING
When you have children, you always have family. They will always be your priority, your responsibility. And a man, a man provides. And he does it even when he's not appreciated or respected or even loved. He simply bears up and he does it. Because he's a man.
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WALTER WHITE
Jesse, look at me, you are a blow fish.
JESSE PINKMAN
What?
WALTER WHITE
A blow fish, think about it. Small in stature, not swift, not cunning, easy prey for predators, but the blow fish has a secret weapon, doesn't he? Doesn't he? What does the blow fish do, Jesse? What does the blow fish do?
JESSE PINKMAN
I don't even know what...
WALTER WHITE
The blow fish puffs up, okay? The blow fish puffs himself up four, five times larger than normal but why? Why does he do that? Because it makes him intimidating, that's why. Intimidating so that the other scarier fish are scared off and that's you. You are a blow fish. Don't you see? It's just all, all an illusion. It's nothing but air. Now, who messes with the blow fish, Jesse?
JESSE PINKMAN
Nobody.
WALTER WHITE
You're damn right.
JESSE PINKMAN
I'm a blow fish.
WALTER WHITE
You are a blow fish. Say it again.
JESSE PINKMAN
A blow fish!
WALTER WHITE
Say it like you mean it!
JESSE PINKMAN
I'M A BLOW FISH! BLOW FISH! YEEEAAAH! BLOW FISHIN' THIS UP!
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WALTER WHITE
I have spent my whole life scared – frightened of things that could happen, might happen, might not happen. Fifty years I spent like that. Finding myself awake at three in the morning. But you know what? Ever since my diagnosis, I sleep just fine.
HANK
Hmmm...okay.
WALTER WHITE
What I came to realize is that fear, that's the worst of it. That's the real enemy. So, get up, get out in the real world and you kick that bastard as hard as you can right in the teeth.
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JESSE PINKMAN
Yo, I get I shouldn't call, but I'm in a situation over here, and I need my money.
WALTER WHITE
I just gave you $600.
JESSE PINKMAN
Yeah, and thanks, Daddy Warbucks, but that was before my housing situation went completely testicular on me, okay?
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WALTER WHITE
What can I do for you?
MIKE
Have a seat, Walter. I spoke to Goodman about Pinkman and this plan of yours.
WALTER WHITE
And?
MIKE
I'm not gonna do it.
WALTER WHITE
Why?
MIKE
Because it's moronic.
WALTER WHITE
Saul said you've done things like this before.
MIKE
That's not the moronic part.
WALTER WHITE
OK, so what's the problem?
MIKE
The problem is the boss wouldn't like it.
WALTER WHITE
Saul?
MIKE
My boss. Your boss. This is a professional courtesy. No one knows I'm here, understand? But our employer would find out like always, and if Pinkman were arrested, he'd take it as a problem. Walt, you got a good thing going here. We all do. You want to risk it all on one junkie? Now I realize you two have a history, but this kid's been on the bubble a while now. It's a long time coming.
WALTER WHITE
What is?
MIKE
Um...I used to be a beat cop a long time ago. Now I'd get called out on domestic disputes all the time, hundreds probably over the years. But there was this one guy, this one piece of shit, that I will never forget. Gordy. He looked like Bo Svenson. Remember him? "Walking Tall"? You don't remember? Anyway, big boy. 270, 280. But his wife, or whatever she was, a lady, she was real small, like a bird. Wrists like little branches. Anyway, my partner and I get called out there every weekend and one of us would pull her aside and say, "C'mon, tonight's the night. Press charges." And this wasn't one of those "deep down he really loves me" set ups, we get a lot of those, but not this. This girl was scared. She wasn't gonna cross him no way, no how. Nothing we could do but pass her off to the EMTs, put him in the car, drive him downtown, throw him in the drunk tank, he sleeps it off, next morning out he goes back home. One night, my partner is out sick and it's just me. Then the call comes in and it's the usual crap. Broken nose in the shower kind of thing. So I cuff him, put him in the car and away we go. Only that night, we're driving into town, and this sideways asshole is in my backseat humming "Danny Boy." And it just rubbed me the wrong way. So instead of left, I go right, out into nowhere, and I kneel him down and I put my revolver in his mouth and I told him, "This is it. This is how it ends." And he's crying, going to the bathroom all over himself, swearing to God he's gonna leave her alone, screaming as much as you can with a gun in your mouth. And I told him to be quiet and I needed to think about what I was gonna do here. And of course he got quiet. Goes still and real quiet, like a dog waiting for dinner scraps. And we just stood there for a while, me acting like I'm thinking things over and Prince Charming kneeling in the dirt with shit in his pants. After a few minutes I took the gun out of his mouth and I say so help me if you ever touch her again and such and such and such and such and blah blah blah blah blah.
WALTER WHITE
Just a warning?
MIKE
Hmph. Of course. Just trying to do the right thing. But two weeks later he killed her. Of course. Caved her head in with the base of Waring blender. We got there and there was so much blood you can taste the metal. The moral of the story is I chose a half measure when I should have gone all the way. I'll never make that mistake again. No more half measures, Walter.
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WALTER WHITE
Did you learn nothing from my chemistry class?
JESSE PINKMAN
No. You flunked me, remember? You prick! Now let me tell you something else. This ain't chemistry – this is art. Cooking is art. And the shit I cook is the bomb, so don't be telling me.
WALTER WHITE
The shit you cook is shit. I saw your set-up. Ridiculous. You and I will not make garbage. We will produce a chemically pure and stable product that performs as advertised. No adulterants. No baby formula. No chili powder.
JESSE PINKMAN
No, no, chili P is my signature!
WALTER WHITE
Not anymore.
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GARY
It's like what they say: man plans and God laughs.
WALTER WHITE
That is such bullshit.
GARY
Excuse me?
WALTER WHITE
Never give up control. Live life on your own terms.
GARY
Yeah, no, I get what you're saying, but, uh, cancer is cancer.
WALTER WHITE
To hell with your cancer. I've been living with cancer for the better part of a year. Right from the start, it's a death sentence. That's what they keep telling me. Well, guess what? Every life comes with a death sentence, so every few months I come in here for my regular scan, knowing full well that one of these times – hell, maybe even today – I'm gonna hear some bad news. But until then, who's in charge? Me. That's how I live my life.
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JESSE PINKMAN
So, you plan to, uh, ice Gonzo, like...future tense?
TUCO
What?
WALTER WHITE
You're saying, Tuco, you're saying Gonzo is currently operating as a police informant as far as you know? [Tuco nods] I'm very sorry to hear that. That's disappointing.
JESSE PINKMAN
Yeah. I would waste him, too, yo.
TUCO
Shut up.
JESSE PINKMAN
Okay.
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SKYLER WHITE
Can I call them and tell them you'll start next week?
WALTER WHITE
I just think that we need to...discuss it a little more, that's all.
SKYLER WHITE
What is there to discuss? You're going to get the best treatment and he's the best.
WALTER WHITE
Well, there's the money discussion. $90,000 out of pocket. Maybe more.
SKYLER WHITE
There's a way, Walt. There's financing, there's installment plans. I could always go back to work. Walt, there's always a way.
WALTER WHITE
Alright. Skyler, say that there is a way, and we spend all that money, and...am I supposed to leave you with all that debt? I just don't want emotions ruling us. Maybe treatment isn't the way to go.
WALTER JR.
Then why don't you just fucking die already? Just give up and die.